Tuesday, March 14, 2006
Okay... so that's it... no one really understands me... They never knew my feelings... Everything seems to fall beneath the grief that's shattering me. Never did I want anyone to get distressed because of me... But it can't happen. It can never happen. Everything just seems to get darker and darker each day. The nerve that tickles me had already gone at this moment. I want my happiness back. I just can't accept the fact that it will never be back. Everyone tells me 'Ssheda musni verom...' And it kills me... Avira boia uste... No one wanted to accompany me anyway. And I don't understand why this simple thing can not be given to me. A piece of my simple dreams... cannot be given forbidden to me... I wish uste sshuda. But I'm not...
I don't understand why people had guts to hurt other people. Friends remain secretive to their friends. This is stupid... Why should they call themselves friends if they don't trust the closest persons to them? This is in the verge of the totality of ignorance, negligence, and absolute stupidity. They wouldn't admit their mistakes when they choose want to be wrong. And what's worse is they do not have any remedy to right this wrong thingy. Hah! I thought she was smart. And now, I see her will to be wrong! She wishes to go on with a stupid *some text missing* when she knew she would suffer the consequences?! And she calls herself a true friend? LOVE REALLY DOES WONDERS... =s
whoooooped @ Tuesday, March 14, 2006
i'm not doiNg anY bettEr now... it's reaLLy tiRing... pGod na 'ko maGing maPuan... i haTe mySeLf... i'M goiNg to faiL my diFFerentiaL caLcuLus whEn i'M gooD at iT... it's jUsT mY proFessor waNted me to coMe up to hEr LeVeL, noT sHe comiNg to miNe... sHe's oNe gooD proFessor, tHough... a vErY gooD oNe... masiYado LnG tLganG mRming mambaGsak... aNd i can't taKe muCh anytHing oF it... iT reaLLy puLLs tHe heLL ouTTa me... sHe is kinD, but prevateS to bE kinDa brutally sarcasTic at tiMes... in faCt, in hEr inteLLigence foR maTh, sHe can be consiDereD as a goDDess in gErmanY...! hMMff..! i waNted to cRy... bUt i don'T wanT peopLe to tHink tHat i'M weaK... tHat onLy my sTudies wouLd briNg me my greaT faLL... enoUgh abouT tHat...
oH gReat..! i haVen't attEnded sHeena's deBut... anD i haTe it... sHe wAs tHe firSt onE whO aRRived in my birtHday, and i haVen't aRRived at hErs...! hMMff...! my mOm caN't see tHat i'm 18!! and it'S kiLLing mE...! sHe getS moRe fuRioUs eaCh aNd eveRydaY..! LooK, sHe nEver wanTed me ouTTa tHis houSe tHis daYs!! arrGggHH! and inaway nia pa si paPa kaniNa... haHa... LauGh it oFF... sHe migHt've been jUst gettiNg oLder... heHe..Ü
whoooooped @ Tuesday, March 14, 2006
